Three years of writing as of today and at times I still wonder what’s it’s all about or what it’s all for then I have days like yesterday where I spend the day with my little granddaughter and my heart is lights up and for a second a ray of sun breaks through into my heart… That one single ray light is enough to help me understand that my life has meaning and that somehow things will be ok.
I got to thinking – what if we had a “re-boot button” or maybe a “Delete key” and all we had to do was push it and all the past would be no more… with a single click all would be gone… The more I thought about it the more I realized – there’s no way I could every do this.. the past and the future are almost one and the same… what would I do without my memories of the past – the good times and the hurting times… it’s these memories that make me who I am… I just wish there was a way I could get off the guilt train and walk down the sun lit path once again, but the train seems to go faster and faster… passing station after station and all I can do is stare out the window…
Three years and many posts later… what will next year this time bring?? I’m afraid to look down that road…
The picture today kinda said it all... empty but still chased by shadows
It was a Sat also…..
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