A man is not old until regrets
take the place of dreams.
~John Barrymore
Today I had to visit our EPIC team to ask them to post some charges in the test hospital for a report I’m writing. Most of the people I know and have worked with for years and then there are the new people or should I say the younger employees. The whole time I was there it was Mr. Lee. I guess it’s true I’ve become one of the old employees. The ones I used to think were old when I started 36 years ago. I know how they meant it out of respect and for that I’m very grateful, but at the same time I had to take a step back and take a look at myself… and yes I guess it’s true, I am one of the older ones now. For most of them this will be there first computer upgrade, for me it will more than likely be my last. Our last big upgrade was 15 years ago and I really hope 15 years from now I’ll be retired, but at the same time I think about all the new things they will get to work on and be apart of just as I have over the years. Then I think just what do I have left to offer? As for as work I think I still have somewhat of a sharp mind to figure out the code for reports and how best to display the data, but there a part of me that just feels so empty, like there’s nothing left to give… like the dream is gone. I don’t want regrets to take over my life, but when the dreams are gone what’s left? Where do you turn, what do you do? Maybe I have become old… maybe old before my time, but there’s still a couple of dreams I like to dream about so just maybe I can hold the regrets off just a little longer.. God I hope so.
