My Fears

Fear can be an ally or it can be your wrose enemy. Right now it's my enemy... I have this awful fear of being alone.  I can't explain it the feeling and I think that is what worries me the most.  Even when I'm at work with all my friends around I feel like I'm in my own little world far away... maybe it's the fact that I'm getting older and my future want be with my friends and knowing they will be learning new things while I become old and just sit and talk about the days gone by... of what used to be.  I just don't like  the idea of sitting here alone.. this is one of my biggest fears... being alone

Where's the birds

I rode down the Pascagoula Beach yesterday, June 7, 2010, looking for a pelican I heard had oil on it, but I never found/saw it. 


After I didn't find it I stopped at the park and went walking on the peir and I did spot one pelican sitting out on a marker.  He was about 150 yards away so I really couldn't say he was the one with the oil.  It was so strange out on the pier yesterday afternoon... there wasn't any wind and even worse there was any birds.  Then this shrimp boat came by I shot pictures of it and it wasn't until I got home I realized there weren't any birds after it.  Every time I've seen a shrimp boat coming in it's been covered with seagulls and here this one with nothing.  Actually I saw two boats and neither had birds. 

It just felt so strange yesterday being in the pier with out the pelicans and seagulls flying all around and even at 'The Point' there wasn't any gulls.  Does it have anything to do with the oil spill??? I don't know..  The oil spill is just so bad... and the most innocent of all are paying the price...