Another month is gone.. we're heading into the Thanksgiving and Christmas season and it feels like only weeks ago we had did this.
I'm at a lost of words this morning. There's so many things going on all at once and I just can't rap my arms around it.
There was a time not so long ago I looked forward to go to work each day. It was always something new and exciting for me to do. How I wake up in the middle of the night on Sunday and dread over take me. I feel as thro I'm being used and used up... I feel as thro I'm being eased out of things, yet there isn't anyone willing to try to lean what I do. My work is just the day in, day out stuff I know.. but I don't think anyone knows just want goes on in one of my days... how many calls I get for special one time reports. No one cares yet.. but when I'm gone -- someone is going to see just what I did. Sure I would like to work with new systems and learn new things... but when it comes down to it.. it's the day to day things that will make or break...
Maybe it's the time of the year that makes me feel like this... I really don't like the holidays... I'm sorry I just can't help it...
I'm trying to ease into my business.. I'm going very slow, but I feel like that can be a good thing...I'm trying to build a rapport with the people I've worked with in hopes they will in turn show others my work and I can build from there. I'm in no rush... my goal is to trun out work that has emotions ...
I did a shoot not long ago of a new Dad with his new baby... I could see the love and also the fear in his look... not fear as one would think of it, but just being afriad of holding such a small little thing and knowing that you are responsible for this little thing... I know the feeling very well... this is what I want other to see and feel years later when they see the prints...
As I have stated before, photography is not a job for me... it's a passion ... A passion that I hope I never lose...
I hope you have a good day and that you have or will find your passion for something..
