Another Night of Dreams

Last night was another one of those nights where I was haunted by dreams all night. Like the picture, the dreams were dark with story lines reaching out like the limbs on the trees here. The setting was dark and gloomily also. I just have to wonder, where do these things come from?

For the most part I can't remember much about the first one. I just remember it like I said dark and gloomily. The second dream wasn't as bad. I was with friends, but I don't know who they were. I remember one part where I was done by a sea wall and the waves were breaking over. I remember the water being so blue and cold and that I was much younger. There were people all around yet I didn't know anyone.

Nothing happened at work yesterday that made me mad or upset. As a matter of fact I had a good day at work. I was able to balance the retirement file I had been working with. I wish I knew what my mind was trying to work out. Is it that deep down I'm afraid of getting older? The fear of being alone? I try not to think about these subjects to much, but yes these things do cross my mind from time to time.

Maybe it will be sometime before I have another visit from these dreams... I hope so anyway.

My Melissa

When your children are small you do all you can to keep them safe and happy. As they get older we start to think as parents we're not needed as we once were. This is true and this is a good thing. It just means that we did our jobs and that our children are growing up, but we still like to think we're needed.

Well yesterday Melissa asked me if I would like to go with her and the boys to the mall. Gage was in need of new shoes. Melissa laughed while we were looking that Gage was just like his Aunt Mary Kathryn when it come to buying shoes... and this isn't a good thing. hahaha As luck would have it Gage found some that he liked and all was right with the world.

On the way home we were listening to Melissa's IPOD and she had one song on there that she told me that each time she heard it, it made her think of her and me... I was so touched I can't remember what it was now... crazy old Daddy... anyway what she told me next will always stay with me. She told me that if she is having a bad day at work all she has to do is call me and ask if I would like to eat lunch with her. She then told me that for those 30 short minutes she is once again Daddy’s little girl and all is right and she can go back to being a surgical nurse. She said told me that some of the people in surgery try to pick on her about it.. but she said it just makes her feel even better... She told me that just knowing I was downstairs was all she needs.

No one could ever know what this little story meant to me. Here's my big girl.. with 2 boys and all that goes with running a family and a job like she has, but she still likes to be Daddy’s little girl.

To say the least my 3 girls are like the candle in picture.... they light up my heart in ways that only a Dad knows. Melissa, Lauren, and Mary... I just want you to know that Dad loves you so much and I need you 3 as much if not more than you need me... Love ya..