Author Unknown
It's Mother's Day weekend and I'm going home to be with my Mom. I know things that she doesn't want to know because she doesn't want to upset me and there feelings she has I understand oh to well, but like her I keep it all to myself because I don't want to upset her...
Lauren called this afternoon and told me that she had talked to Mom and that she broke down and told her that she couldn't stand the weekends. I know that feeling... the week days we have things like work to think about, but the weekend there's nothing but silence.. I know I've written about this before, but there were times that the silence would just split my heart and the loneliness would flood over me...
I think this is what Mom is going through.... I wish there was some magic words I could speak and have all the hurt just go away. I'm getting better thinking about Dad... there are still times something will come to mind and it hits me all over again... Guess we never get over it.... then of all things I think about my girls and God I don't want them to hurt like this but I have no control over it... all I can do is love them as best as I can and tell them every day just what they mean to me so when I do leave I can leave them knowing they were so special to me and there wasn't a day that went by that I didn't think about them and smile.
Pain...when does it go away... when will the hurting stop. I wish there was something I could do for Mom... Tomorrow she will be excited to see me and then Sunday I'll have to leave and we'll both cry for hours...
