When?

It's been one of those weeks well the past couple of weeks hasn't been real good really.  Every time I feel I'm climbing the up and about to get on top of the world, the my feet gets kicked out from under me and on my face I land once again.  A lot of it's my fault because I can't or want do something out of fear of hurting others.  It's almost like it's ok if I hurt.  There's something so wrong with this and I know it but still I allow it to happen.  

I just keep everything to myself because who wants to hear it ... there's nothing anyone can do and there's no reason to upset anyone. 

I hope soon, very soon I can begain to feel again and this time feel good for a change and longer than a week.